An Abortionists' Nightmare
Dr. McArthur Hill used to kill babies for a living. Now he has repented. At a conference of former abortionists, he shared the nightmares he had:
“In my nightmares I would
deliver a healthy newborn baby and I would take that healthy newborn baby and I
would hold it up, and I would face a jury of faceless people and ask them to
tell me what to do with this baby. They would go thumbs-up or thumbs-down and if
they made a thumbs-down indication then I was to drop the baby into a bucket of
water which was present. I never did reach the point of dropping the baby into
the bucket because I d always wake up at that point. But it was clear to me then
that there was something going on in my mind, subconsciously.”
I have helped abortionists make
the transition from killing babies to repentance, and can attest that Dr. Hill’s
experience is not uncommon. In fact, his nightmare reveals some common aspects
of the suffering of abortionists.
Notice, first of all, that Dr.
Hill has in his hands a “healthy newborn baby.” Abortions are done on healthy
unborn babies, but in this nightmare, the doctor’s conscience is reminding
him that a baby is a baby, and that the lies of abortion propagandists who try
to make the public think that abortion is only done for “health reasons” are
exactly that – lies.
More significant still is the
fact that the abortionist is holding the baby up in front of a group of people.
What happened to the “private, personal” nature of abortion? Abortionists know
better. It’s a public industry, a public battle, and like it or not, the world
has its eyes on them. They are committing that wrong which humanity itself, in
the judgment of history, knows to be the same wrong that constitutes genocide
and holocausts. Yes, this “private” act is really as public as can be.
The abortion propagandists try to
paint this issue as “a woman’s choice and hers alone.” But the abortionist’s
nightmare tells us a different story. The mother is absent. It is society,
represented by a jury of his peers, that is making the choice. This represents
both the abortionist’s resentment as well as his attempt to evade
responsibility. “It’s not that I favor killing babies,” many abortionists will
say. “It’s that either I provide this service or someone else will do so, in a
less professional way. Society has made this choice available, which is a good
thing, but somebody has to carry it out.”
Finally, the jury is “faceless.”
Of course it is. Nobody wants to claim responsibility for legal abortion.
Legislators blame the courts; judges blame precedent; others blame the “law of
It’s time for the abortionist s
nightmare to wake us all up! Now is the time for us to put our own face on this
issue, and claim responsibility to break through the faceless crowd and declare,
“The killing stops here! I will no longer be silent!”