I was completely and helplessly overridden with guilt for ten years
I became pregnant while a junior in college. I believed that my parents would
disown me if I were pregnant and unmarried. Without further consideration or
counseling I had an abortion.
I was told only that the decision had to be made within three days and if my
blood was negative it would cost more.
The abortion was terrifying, gross, inhuman, horrifying, feelings of guilt
I was completely and helplessly overridden with guilt for ten years.
Gradually, I began to be obsessed with the thoughts of being a cold-blooded
After the abortion, I asked God to forgive me. Nothing helps a person who has
experienced this get over it or deal with it. It even took me months to complete
I think my entire life situation changed because I altered the situation to
try not to disappoint my parents.