I was numb

I came to have the abortion because the father did not love me or want to be a father. I felt pressured. No one would understand if I had a baby, but was single. My mother was for an abortion.

I was not given adequate information and counseling prior to the abortion. I was told at 8 weeks it was a blob of tissue. Not true. When I did receive counseling they talked about abortion with showing me the instrument used.

I would describe my abortion as wrong. I was numb. I would not want someone else to have to go through with it.

My mom and I have kept the subject closed. She believes it was the right thing. I resent the fact that when I told her the first thing she said is when are you going to have it done. My father and I grew closer throughout this. The father of the baby was there with me, but a few months later, I found out he already had a son. He told me he has never gotten anyone pregnant before. We are no longer in any contact with each other. 

I have been able to help a friend out when she was considering abortion. She decided against it after talking with me, but she had a tubular pregnancy. I remember when another one of my girlfriends was trying to talk me out of having one. I didn’t want to, but I went ahead with it.

I have taken a class at the Crisis Pregnancy Center called PACE – Post Abortion Counseling and Education. It has helped a lot. Just having someone to talk with that I can relate to is nice. As for did it help: yes it did, but nothing will change the fact that it did happen.

Having an abortion changed my life by seeing people in a different view. Brought me closer to God. Has made me see things I would have never thought I would.