I tried to get away

I was 18, pregnant, and very scared. I wasn’t supposed to be able to get pregnant. I felt I had nowhere to turn and no one to help me. I was a good kid and this was my first sexual experience.

Were you given adequate information and counseling prior to the abortion(s)? 

Limited. 15 minutes at Family Planning and 15 minutes at the doctor regarding how the abortion would be performed. Never touched emotion or reality of the baby in my body.

How would you describe your abortion(s)?

Traumatic, painful, I fought it with everything inside of me. I felt like I was walking down a tunnel and these words pulled at me.

I tried to get away. I could not pull myself through the guilt I’ve lived with since then. This guilt is such a strong emotion that it had a major control on decisions in my life.

I’ve been through counseling with a gal who had gone through the same thing. But, the only thing that helped was believing that God forgave me and I needed to and could forgive myself.

If I had been told the truth, that I had a living human being growing inside me, I never would have aborted and I would have a loved 14 year-old in my life now. I would never have had to live with my shame and guilt.