When I see a baby I remember what I did to mine

I was involved with an African American and got pregnant. (I am white.) My Mom and Dad didn't want me to "ruin" my life by having a mixed baby.

I don't remember much about the abortion because I was under a sedative.

The abortion affected me strongly. I was thinking about what I did all the time. It stays with me even when I see a baby I remember what I did to mine.

After the abortion, I talked to my friends, wrote a letter to my baby about why I did this and I cried a lot.

This has changed my life because I don't think I could ever have another abortion. I couldn't put myself through the emotional pain again.