I had murdered my own child
I was twenty-two years old and four months clean from drugs and alcohol. I
was scared of the thought of being clean and a mother, it was overwhelming to
me. Everyone I spoke with was pro-abortion except the father, whom I did not
love and wanted nothing more to do with. To me it was the solution to my
problem. I was more concerned with myself.
Considering all the information on the subject I was not given any
information. This was a major decision and it was treated very casual.
The abortion itself hurt physically greater than anyone had prepared me for,
I was numb emotionally and just wanted the pregnancy to be over with.
Afterwards, I felt relief the whole procedure was over.
Six months after I gave birth I became a Christian and the Lord began to
reveal that I had murdered my own child and I sought His forgiveness. After
volunteering at my local Crisis Program Center I agreed to attend the
post-abortion Bible Study. I was relieved to know that my child is in heaven
with his maker and I will meet him someday.
I will live with great regret for the rest of my life here on earth. It is so
permanent because I know first hand the crisis, the pain, the denial, the grief,
or regretting their abortion.