I suppressed it all

The man I was with was doing drugs.  I was a single mother of a 2 1/2 year old and 10 month old. A friend took me to the clinic and a different friend made the appointment. The father hasn't spoken to me since.

The abortion was painful, unemotional and scary.

The first two years virtually there was no effect -- I suppressed it all. After the deep depression, the realization that I took my baby's life hit hard. The father has a deep hatred for me.

To deal with the abortion I have gone to the crisis pregnancy center in my county. I have read several post-abortion articles and read a post-abortion trauma book. I have received forgiveness and forgiven myself recently.

The abortion has changed my life because I stand even more strongly against it because I have been there! I remember my lost baby if not daily, at least 2 or 3 times a week. I know he has forgiven me and is waiting for me to come home to him.