I am now affected daily

The baby was our first child for my husband and I. We weren't married at the time but we got married four months after the procedure. He did not want me to have the abortion but he was preparing to go overseas for 2 months and felt he should not interfere with my decision.

It did not hurt and was basically uneventful. I cried for an hour when I came home then went to work the night shift in my hospital where I worked in the newborn nursery with many babies that night.

For many years I felt no remorse or grief. I am now affected daily and long for my lost child -- I have read and studied much about Post-Abortion Recovery but do not feel healed.

To help deal with the abortion I work actively with the Pro-Life Movement. I now realize the sad reality of abortion and am beginning to try sidewalk counseling as a registered nurse. I hope I can educate women.

I will forever feel a profound loss and sadness from this experience; even though I believe God has forgiven me this does not diminish the pain of not living everyday with my child. I have three beautiful daughters who are living and I love them very much.