I am now affected daily
The baby was our first child for my husband and I. We weren't married at the
time but we got married four months after the procedure. He did not want me to
have the abortion but he was preparing to go overseas for 2 months and felt he
should not interfere with my decision.
It did not hurt and was basically uneventful. I cried for an hour when I came
home then went to work the night shift in my hospital where I worked in the
newborn nursery with many babies that night.
For many years I felt no remorse or grief. I am now affected daily and long
for my lost child -- I have read and studied much about Post-Abortion Recovery
but do not feel healed.
To help deal with the abortion I work actively with the Pro-Life Movement. I
now realize the sad reality of abortion and am beginning to try sidewalk
counseling as a registered nurse. I hope I can educate women.
I will forever feel a profound loss and sadness from this experience; even
though I believe God has forgiven me this does not diminish the pain of not
living everyday with my child. I have three beautiful daughters who are living
and I love them very much.