I felt my baby panic
My sister suggested the first one (abortion), I was horrified at the idea.
She set the appointment up and I went to have the procedure done. Before I got
the abortion, the father told me about his son. Now that I think about it I
think he was suggesting I keep it, although I can't be sure. I had another after
that by him and my mother paid for it.
There was no counseling except the papers I signed to approve the procedure
and the other paper saying I knew the possible risks. When asked the questions I
was told the risks were minimal and the procedure, the way it was explained to
me I thought it was safe. Any doubts were simply pushed to the side by the lady.
I felt my baby panic when the abortion was in the process and I told the
doctor. I changed my mind and he said something to the effect that it was too
late. Now with my second abortion it took me two trips because I didn't want to
get it done the first time.
I have had nervous breakdowns, depression, and I became homeless. My daughter
was born when I was homeless and my Dad adopted her. One child -- I can't
remember if I gave her up for adoption or the baby died at the hospital. I
forgot about one of the other abortions that I had done. I can't work anymore
and I become psychotic when I do not take my medicine. I am schizoid with manic
I'm in the process of going to the Crisis Pregnancy Center and we are using
the women in Ramah: A Post Abortion Bible Study. I also read Christian books to
help deal with the pain.
The abortion has changed my life because I lost my job and haven't been able
to hold steady job. I haven't felt the same since. I don't know if this has
anything to do with it, but God came into my life and I quit drinking and doing