I know what it's like to hate myself...

A friend had an abortion (she was the sister of the father) and she suggested it was easy and would be the only answer because if I didn't I would ruin his life forever. The father was also involved and he was the one who drove me to the clinic.

The abortion was horrible, awful, a nightmare and a crime. It was years before I dealt with it but when I did it was the most painful thing that I have gone through.

The abortion did not really affect me till years later but when it did it was devastating for my present husband and me. Not many people knew about the abortion.

To deal with the abortion, I asked God's forgiveness then forgiving myself -- it's been a long road. The pain will never go away but I know I've been forgiven and that helps.

The abortion changed my life because instead of having 3 children I would have 4. I know what it feels like to really hate yourself and what its like trying to deal through that otherwise I don't think I would have had to.