Most traumatic experience of my life

I was 17. The only person that knew was my boyfriend—also 17 years old. I didn’t tell anyone. I believed abortion was wrong, was murder, but I felt I had no other choice.

No information was given to me at all. Nothing. Except they explained the procedure.

It was the most traumatic experience of my life. It made me lose all self worth, any sense of purity or goodness. I was devastated. It hurt more emotionally than physically.

It totally changed me. No one else knew, but I never could say anything to anyone. I had this huge, deep, dark secret inside tearing me apart.

For five years I was silent. Because it is too much. I felt it was too horrible to tell anything to anyone. But then I searched God.

My abortion changed my life. Because I have a desire now to help other PAS people and girls who get pregnant. It is my passion because I understand. It hurts, but I am healed.