The father hasn’t spoken to me since

The man I was with was doing drugs. I was a single parent of a 2 ½ year old and a 10-month-old. A friend took me to the clinic and a different friend made the appointment. The father hasn’t spoken to me since.

It was painful, unemotional, scary.

The first two years the abortion had virtually no effect. I suppressed it all after that, deep depression, the realization that I took my baby’s life hit hard. The father has a deep hatred.

I have gone to the crisis pregnancy center in my county and tried to assist someone there. I have read several post abortion tracts and a post abortion trauma book. I have received forgiveness and have forgiven myself just recently.

I stand even more strongly against it because I have been there. I remember my lost baby if not daily, at least 2 or 3 times a week. I know he has forgiven me and is waiting for me to come home to him.