I am permanently changed
I am 24 years. I have been married almost three years and I have an almost
three year old son. I am also a full time college student.
I had an abortion in April 1998. The pressure was coming in all directions
but especially my husband but mostly form the clinic even though I was having
tremendous doubts. It was the weakest moment of my life and I am still suffering
the "consequences" of my abortion on every level.
I was not counseled because it was "you do not ask /you do not know"
situation. My marriage continues to deteriorate because I find myself loathing
my husband. My personality has changed dramatically. I dislike myself, suicide
was considered and my health is terrible. Since my abortion I have gained 100lb
and am now hypothyroid and hypoglycemic. I'm not better physically or
No one beside my husband and a few close online friends know about my
abortion. I just keep going through the motions -- I feel just raw. I felt
transparent and I am permanently changed.