I will never forget the loss I feel…
I became pregnant at age 16 and 19. I did not tell anyone except the
boyfriend at the time. We went to a health clinic for the pregnancy test and
they then referred us to an abortion clinic.
I was in my first trimester both times, and had general anesthesia. It was
extremely emotional and traumatic the first time. The second time I did not love
the father, and so I blocked the whole incident out of my mind.
The first abortion affected the father and I quite strongly. We were very
upset about it, and experienced guilt and grief for at least 10 years after. The
second abortion seemed to have no affect on the father. I experienced a lot of
grief and guilt.
I have worked through it with the Lord. I am at peace now with myself and my
savior. But I will never forget the loss I feel for my children until I see them
The abortions left many emotional scars and physical ones as well. By not
being able to deal with the grief and loss over the death of my babies, I lived
a life of broken relationships, sexual affairs, and abused alcohol at times. I
also had to have a hysterectomy at age 25, because of cervical damage from the