I will never forget the loss I feel…

I became pregnant at age 16 and 19. I did not tell anyone except the boyfriend at the time. We went to a health clinic for the pregnancy test and they then referred us to an abortion clinic.

I was in my first trimester both times, and had general anesthesia. It was extremely emotional and traumatic the first time. The second time I did not love the father, and so I blocked the whole incident out of my mind.

The first abortion affected the father and I quite strongly. We were very upset about it, and experienced guilt and grief for at least 10 years after. The second abortion seemed to have no affect on the father. I experienced a lot of grief and guilt.

I have worked through it with the Lord. I am at peace now with myself and my savior. But I will never forget the loss I feel for my children until I see them in heaven.

The abortions left many emotional scars and physical ones as well. By not being able to deal with the grief and loss over the death of my babies, I lived a life of broken relationships, sexual affairs, and abused alcohol at times. I also had to have a hysterectomy at age 25, because of cervical damage from the abortions.