How did you come to have the abortion(s) and who was involved?
I was expecting my 3rd child, fear of financial problems. My other
2 were in day care and I worked. I was married but we both worked and were
trying to save for a house, etc. My husband didn’t want me to have an abortion.
I was stubborn and thought that it would make life easier on everyone. I went to
the clinic. They told me that it was common for women (career women) to have
abortions and that I would be fine, that it would not be hard.
How would you describe your abortion(s)?
Very painful. I was very misinformed about the after effects, the emotional
and physical complications. I was deceived by all I had read or heard in my
medical referrals to have an abortion. It was a rough procedure. I bled a lot
there and after I got home. I was hurried out the door shortly afterward. I knew
as soon as my uterus was violated that I had participated in a murder. My spirit
fragmented and the evil that was in that clinic came in all around me. I lost my
mind.
How did your abortion(s) affect you and others?
I had a severe emotional collapse. I was thinking of killing myself. I cried
every day for a year or more. I did not get along with anyone too well. I was
not a very good mother. I had marriage problems that led to a divorce. I felt
like I hated the world. I suffered nightmares, bad thoughts while awake. Every
time the vacuum was used I thought about how my baby died. I wanted another
baby. I did get pregnant approximately one year after the abortion and had a
replacement baby. I grieved for years.
Please describe what you have done to deal with your abortion(s), and
whether it helped.
I got close to God, prayed, asked him to help me. I started going to a church
that deals with broken people, they prayed for and counseled me till I got my
life back together. The early years I plain suffered and lived from day to day
unhappy even after I had another baby. I called a hot line but it was not manned
by Christians. It was secular and the advice they gave me was worthless. They
said just to forget I ever had an abortion.
How do you think your abortion(s) changed your life?
It totally had my life wrecked for close to 8 years. Thank God, I got the
right kind of help! I am now involved in a ministry that reaches out to the
post-abortion victim.
