I was single (alcohol and drug abuser at the time), went to a doctor, got
some pills and broke out in hives, as a result, a friend suggested I go to
Planned Parenthood [and they sent me to another city] along with a planeload of
[The abortion was] extremely painful -- worse than 3 days of labor (I
experienced later having a child). I felt like my insides were being ripped out
backwards. Just before the abortion, I wasn’t sure I wanted to go through with
it. The doctor took advantage of my emotional state in a parental authority
responding to a child. The abortion was to last 10 minutes (so I was told by
Planned Parenthood). It lasted from ½ hr. to 45 minutes.
Six weeks after my abortion, I contracted hepatitis. Never heard from Planned
Parenthood and never contacted them out of shame/guilt. Alcoholism increased. I
tried to commit suicide. Miraculously, I got healed of the hepatitis and
delivered of alcoholism. Gave my life to Christ and was delivered of drugs.
Delivered of gastro-intestinal disturbance (as a result of abortion) and guilt,
spirit of murder, shame and finally able to grieve for my child 12 years later.
I was also not able to give birth to my daughter vaginally but needed a C-
I gave my life to Christ Jesus. The Lord dealt with me and convicted me of
the murder of my child. I asked for His forgiveness and asked the forgiveness of
my child who is with the Lord. I am now in WEBA and minister to other hurting
women as well as give my testimony.
God never wanted me to murder my child. However, since I did, I have more
appreciation for what the Lord has done [in my] life and that of my 9 year old,
especially being a single parent. Also, as a result, I’m able to help others in
ways I never dreamt were possible. God works all things together for the good
for those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose.