I was single (alcohol and drug abuser at the time), went to a doctor, got some pills and broke out in hives, as a result, a friend suggested I go to Planned Parenthood [and they sent me to another city] along with a planeload of others.

[The abortion was] extremely painful -- worse than 3 days of labor (I experienced later having a child). I felt like my insides were being ripped out backwards. Just before the abortion, I wasn’t sure I wanted to go through with it. The doctor took advantage of my emotional state in a parental authority responding to a child. The abortion was to last 10 minutes (so I was told by Planned Parenthood). It lasted from ½ hr. to 45 minutes.

Six weeks after my abortion, I contracted hepatitis. Never heard from Planned Parenthood and never contacted them out of shame/guilt. Alcoholism increased. I tried to commit suicide. Miraculously, I got healed of the hepatitis and delivered of alcoholism. Gave my life to Christ and was delivered of drugs. Delivered of gastro-intestinal disturbance (as a result of abortion) and guilt, spirit of murder, shame and finally able to grieve for my child 12 years later. I was also not able to give birth to my daughter vaginally but needed a C- section.

I gave my life to Christ Jesus. The Lord dealt with me and convicted me of the murder of my child. I asked for His forgiveness and asked the forgiveness of my child who is with the Lord. I am now in WEBA and minister to other hurting women as well as give my testimony.

God never wanted me to murder my child. However, since I did, I have more appreciation for what the Lord has done [in my] life and that of my 9 year old, especially being a single parent. Also, as a result, I’m able to help others in ways I never dreamt were possible. God works all things together for the good for those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose.