I was 19 and engaged, but really wasn’t prepared to hear the
words, "Your test was positive". I was really stunned and numb, so it
was really easy to listen to the advice of others. I wasn’t required to
really think about my decision to abort. A family member was getting
appointments for me, etc.
[The abortion was] really painful, frightening, emotionally drawing. I
had guilt and feelings of great loss.
I talked to my baby with a lot of tears, and then asked him to forgive me.
The real comfort came when I felt true forgiveness from God and was able to
forgive myself. I guess first I confronted the issue of my abortion and then
dealt with it slowly over a period of time.
I am always wondering what my child would have been and done in this life. A
part of me is missing. A piece of the puzzle is lost. At least now that I’m
involved in pro-life work, pro-abortionists can’t tell me I don’t know anything
Abortion is unnatural. Abortion hurts us emotionally and spiritually.
The reality of my abortion didn’t hit me until four months later. At that time I
saw something about abortion on TV -- that set the spark. I locked myself in the
bathroom. I went into a frenzy, crying, sobbing, screaming. I felt such intense
emotional pain as I have never experienced. I hurt, but I am thankful for what I
saw about abortion on the TV. It was the beginning of my recovery period.
It was painful, but at least I could start dealing with what I’d pushed into the
back of my brain. I just hope that in my pro-life work, I can help other
women who have had abortions or are contemplating abortions.