Everything I was told was a lie

It's been about two years since I had an abortion. I am not proud of my decision, but at the time I thought I was doing the right thing. I had just turned 17. I was scared and very confused about my future. I was still in school and my boyfriend just started a new job, so we had no money. When I found out that I was pregnant I found myself more scared and more confused, we had no money so how can we take care of a child. I could not give a child of mine up for adoption. I heard that abortion was quick and painless. I also heard that the fetus inside of me was not a child yet, meaning I would not be murdering a child.

Little did I know that everything I was told was a lie. No one prepared me for the pain emotionally. Yes, painless physically, but the pain of emotions was very painful. The first year was the toughest year of my life. I thought I was going to die. I had no one to talk to or turn to. I was in it on my own. That's what I did I suffered here by myself and now I'm recovering on my own. Till this day I do not speak about it to my family or my boyfriend because it's a sore subject. I can talk to other women and people about what I went through. That is one way I recovered is talking about my pain. Another was American Life League. They made me realize I wasn't the only one who made the same mistake.

The reason why I'm writing is I would like to help people who are going through the same as me. It's been about two years since I had an abortion. I would never do it again, even if my life depended on it. And now I'm asking for your help. Like I was saying I would like to help women of all ages. I would like to speak about what I went through.