I struggle with my own worth

I was in my first year of college, my boyfriend and I were not ready to get married. My sister, a friend's mother (a nurse), and, of course, my boyfriend were involved.

The only counseling I received was methods of birth control I should use so this wouldn't happen again.

I had slight cramping (after the abortion). It did not hurt me terribly at the time. I remember crying in the recovery room, then feeling relief.

It wasn't until later I saw a sonogram, I think, on TV of an abortion. The baby was resisting the suction. I thought, "What have I done?" It was the first time my husband and I realized that "it" was a baby.

I went through abortion counseling (PACE) as a new counselor at a Christian crisis pregnancy center.

I still struggle with my own worth, but for the most part it has helped me to identify with others in crisis situations, not condemn them.