If I could only have my child back!
I had been going with a guy that I was in love with for 3 years and
the form of birth control we used was the pull-out method. He was 18 and I
was 21. He said he'd leave me. I was head over heels about him.
The abortion was miserable. He did go with me and he paid for it. I wanted to
go completely under but I had to stay awake for it. It hurt a lot. I would never
go through it again.
The abortion mentally affected me. It was six years ago. It still affects me
to this day and it always will. As for him, I could not say, we broke up less
than a year later, so I don't know how he feels.
I pray to help me deal with it. God helps me to deal with this misfortune. I
joined the "Right to Life" and I have two beautiful children; that helps me deal
I know I'll never get another abortion. The main thing that keeps me going is
knowing that my child is now with God. If I could do over again what I did then
I'd have a beautiful son or daughter. I am against abortion, especially as a
means of birth control. If I could only have my child back!
I wish to remain anonymous. God knows who I am and I'll have to answer to
him. I feel a great deal of remorse.