I may have killed my only child.

At 16 years old - 15 years ago, I became sexually active and pregnant. My parents, who were divorced, both insisted on abortion. The father of my child agreed.

My abortion was done in a hospital under general anesthetic, therefore I remember nothing of the actual abortion procedure.

How it affected others I do not know. For myself, I became destructive - drinking and drugs. I continued to be sexually active. I was very unhappy, full of grief and sadness.

I did nothing for twenty years. The Lord reached out to me. I converted to Catholicism and married a wonderful man. I confessed my sin and accepted the Lord's forgiveness. I now work for a pro-life organization.

I lived one half of my life in an unhappy, destructive state. I am now 31 years old and 5 years ago I found out that I have Pelvic Inflammatory disease. Because of this I am unable to conceive. I have had two surgeries and my chances are now increased from 5% to 30 - 40% chance. My doctor has said that I will most likely have to have a hysterectomy at some point in my future. Is this due to my abortion? No one really knows for sure. One can only go with what's in ones heart. I have finally left it all to the Lord "Thy will be done". It is a heavy cross to bear, to think that I may have killed my only child.