I kept hearing babies crying
The abortion was suggested to me by a friend. My
boyfriend was very upset when I told him I was pregnant, but when I told him
I would get an abortion he was fine. He did not want a baby.
Before my date, I was very numb and withdrawn, yet inside I was crying out.
The day of the abortion, as I was waiting, I kept hearing babies crying. They
were no where around. The actual abortion I was "put out" for.
After the abortion I was very depressed. I ended up being fired from my job
because I couldn't stay at work. Low self esteem, nightmares, I was empty inside
and lots of guilt.
The main healing was through Jesus Christ. I needed to deal with grief and
guilt. Through prayer and talking I have had healing. I had the abortion in '75.
It took until now to tell my family.
After I had the abortion my life became much more serious. I became aware of
where I was going, the road of life I had chosen, and it wasn't taking me
anywhere. I changed my attitude towards God and realized He was the only answer.