I suffered a nervous breakdown

My boyfriend and I didn’t plan this pregnancy. He wanted to marry me but I didn't want to marry or have this baby although he at first went along with my idea of having an abortion. Later on (weeks later) he changed his mind and asked me to marry him so that I wouldn't have the abortion. Nothing could change my mind about it and so I went through with it and never got married with him.

The abortion was a D&C done in less than an hour.

Eventually my boyfriend must have realized that I didn't care enough about him or the pregnancy that I had aborted so he left me. Before we broke up I suffered a nervous breakdown from excessive depression and was hospitalized. I had changed after the abortion & so did he.

I joined several different religions but none of them helped. 15 years later is when I can really say I'm sure I won't get punished anymore because I found Christ and am born again. I know now that Christ's shedding of his blood on the cross has washed away this sin.

Before pregnancy I wanted to study and dance professionally -- something I had been doing since H.S. After abortion I could no longer concentrate on my studies and my dancing had gone down hill. After the nervous breakdown I was heavily sedated and grew overweight. I quit school (college) and didn't dance again. All my aspirations and reasons for having this abortion had gone down the drain in spite of my having the abortion.