I will always be sorry.
I was single, at my first job and the oldest of three
Catholic daughters - when I found out I was pregnant - I didn't see any
The abortion was scary, painful, lonely and guilt-ridden.
For nine years, especially the last five of those after I had married, I felt
guilty, unforgiven and like I would be punished by God if I ever had children.
I went on a Cursillo weekend, realized I hadn't forgiven myself (that's the
hardest part!) and that I was extremely grateful for my two healthy boys.
I will always know that I didn't allow another human being "life". I will
always know that it was selfishness and pride that didn't allow me to see any
alternatives. I will always be sorry.