I hated the doctor
I just did it without confiding in anyone as I did not
trust anyone enough to ask for help. I talked to a counselor who did not
offer any alternatives and did not give me truthful info. (1 1/2 years ago.)
I was paralyzed and reacting in a crisis situation. I felt relief at first. I
hated the doctor, the male assistant, the female counselor. I couldn't believe
they could continually be involved in killing. It was the worst experience I
I needed therapy and medication for depression. Therapist told me I was in a
major depression. One of my closest friends and his sister comforted me, related
experience of another woman they knew, but denied that the fetus was really a
baby at that state of development. In a way, their denial made me feel a little
better. It helped me rationalize and minimize it. My boyfriend comforted me and
forgave me, but expressed anger and disbelief.
I went to support group, New Life Homes and Family Services. There was a lot
of healing -- especially because of the understanding of people who had gone
through the experience of abortion.
The abortion changed my life drastically. I will never get over this.
Everyday, I come to a greater realization of what I have actually done and how
greatly I regret it.