The Worst Crime ever committed

I became pregnant at 18 years of age. Was not using birth control at the time though I had knowledge about it. My boyfriend was black and I am white. My parents panicked. I was in college and living at home. My Mom and I decided an abortion was the only way out. Main motivation was to hide my pregnancy from family, relatives, and friends.

The abortion took place in Washington, DC in 1972. I remember feeling like I was on an assembly line. The only counseling I received was a strong push to use birth control, especially the pill. It was a physically painful procedure.

I walled off all emotions concerning the abortion. Did not consider the pregnancy to have been a baby. Felt relieved. My mother was extremely angry with me and my father drank heavily for a while. 15 years later the walls came down after viewing a film on abortion. I was feeling guilt, anguish, depression, anger and pain.

I worked through the post abortion study published by PACE. It helped tremendously and relieved the negative emotions.

I will always regret having killed my first child through abortion. I wish with all my Heart that I had chosen adoption instead. For a woman to kill her unborn child is the Worst crime ever committed.