The Worst Crime ever committed
I became pregnant at 18 years of age. Was not using birth control at the time
though I had knowledge about it. My boyfriend was black and I am white. My
parents panicked. I was in college and living at home. My Mom and I decided an
abortion was the only way out. Main motivation was to hide my pregnancy from
family, relatives, and friends.
The abortion took place in Washington, DC in 1972. I remember feeling like I
was on an assembly line. The only counseling I received was a strong push to use
birth control, especially the pill. It was a physically painful procedure.
I walled off all emotions concerning the abortion. Did not consider the
pregnancy to have been a baby. Felt relieved. My mother was extremely angry with
me and my father drank heavily for a while. 15 years later the walls came down
after viewing a film on abortion. I was feeling guilt, anguish, depression,
anger and pain.
I worked through the post abortion study published by PACE. It helped
tremendously and relieved the negative emotions.
I will always regret having killed my first child through abortion. I wish
with all my Heart that I had chosen adoption instead. For a woman to kill her
unborn child is the Worst crime ever committed.