How did you come to have the abortion(s) and who was involved?
The day I took the urine test and was told I was pregnant I went to a pay
phone to call an abortion clinic. I had a 6 month old and a fiancé (who was in
Korea at the time). I couldn't do it to either one of us.
How would you describe your abortion(s)?
SICK - everyone was casual -- sort of "routine". During the ultrasound I was
asked did I want to look and I wanted "no part". The "suction" was difficult.
The vacuum pulled at me, after which I vomit "green stuff". The nurse said
it was "usual" - 2 hours later I was out the door.
How did your abortion(s) affect you and others?
I get nervous whenever my period is due - I feel I'm being punished (by 3
previous miscarriages). Sometimes I hate my husband - feeling I did it for him.
Sometimes I hate men -- no matter how many hundreds of times they have sex it
doesn't matter, but one mistake for a woman - and the whole world could know.
Please describe what you have done to deal with your abortion(s), and did
Nothing! On the 20th was the first time I sat with a
"professional" to even say it.
How do you think the abortion(s) changed your life?
MAJOR - sometimes it comes to me and I cry (for "no reason" to outsiders) or
I hear someone mention how easy it would be - but it's not! 5 yrs later
I'm just starting to realize how that one mistake of having an abortion affected