I was a student at a University when I had an abortion. I'm not married and with all the attending pressures - I submitted to an abortion.

I was told my unborn baby was just a clot of blood and I tried to convince myself this was true - but deep inside my heart I knew better. Now I know I killed my baby and I will live with that thought plaguing me the rest of my life. I 'm wondering if there is forgiveness for me. Even if God does forgive me, I cannot forgive myself. I am a murderer. I wish I could forget, but this gruesome act is burned indelibly on my memory and conscience. I often cry myself to sleep -- but tears don't help. I will be a failure the rest of my life -- no matter how I succeed. I hate the word abortion. If I could convince any woman never to get acquainted with that ugly word - I would tell the world.