I realize I killed a human being.
I became pregnant when I was 20 years old. I was
unmarried and in love with the guy. He was not serious about me at the time
and did not want to be tied down. He said it was my decision and he would
stand by me no matter what. He did not go with me to Planned Parenthood and
to the medical facility for the abortion. I went to Planned Parenthood, they
did the pregnancy test and I told them I wanted an abortion. To the best of
my recollection I was not counseled about any other choices, they just set
up the time and place and that was that. A girlfriend took me to have the
Everything went fine. There were no complications.
At that time it did not affect me. I just kept going on with my life and it
didn't bother me. Since then I realize what I've done. I realize I killed a
human being. I hurt a little baby. It makes me feel awful but I'm thankful God
can forgive me and I know I have to forgive myself. It's hard to deal with the
fact I took an innocent life because of my selfishness and my lack of concern. I
gave life to someone through carelessness and then decided to kill it because it
was inconvenient. That's hard to live with. I'm now married to the father of
that child. We've both grown up, matured and regret that decision terribly.
The only thing that helps me is knowing God loves me. He forgave me and He
understands my heart. Without Him I don't think I could live with the guilt.