I went to Planned Parenthood for a pregnancy test. They didn't do ANY
counseling about fetal development or alternatives. An abortion was "the answer"
just because I didn't want to be pregnant yet, even though I was happily married
and had no financial problems, etc. etc.
I was treated like a cow. There was no explanation AT ALL by the abortionist
regarding ANYTHING that could have helped me think twice about "my" decision to
have an abortion. Of course, it wasn't really "my" decision at all. Everybody
else decided for me. My husband didn't want me to abort, but all the
professionals "knew better what was best for me."
I still cannot tell anyone else about it, even though it's been over 20 years
now. It's made me very pro-life, because I KNOW the deceit that goes on in
so-called "counseling." Not one day goes by that i don't think about it with
regret and sorrow.
I've been active in Right to Life, but don't really know if that helps or
makes it worse. It could be that my pro-life involvement is a constant reminder
that consumes me. I also have accepted the Lord as my Savior, and I think that
has helped, too, to know I'll see my baby someday in heaven.
I have eight children now. I have a burning desire to just keep having babies
to somehow "prove" my worth. I am a GOOD mother, but I'm sure I work so hard at
it to prove it to myself. I still cry over my aborted baby often.
