I cried throughout the whole experience

At 21 years of age, I got pregnant by my boyfriend who is now my husband. He was finishing college and planning on going on for his masters degree. I had not completed my college education and was working as a secretary. We were both very frightened, even as young adults.

It was the most insensitive, horrible, frightening, confusing time of life. The entire medical staff was very insensitive, somewhat gruff, and not sympathetic at all. I cried throughout the whole experience and the nurse told me to "stop crying." I was 21 years old! It was somewhat painful also.

It still affects myself and my marriage. My husband was brought up a Catholic (although we never go to church) and that abortion was against all his moral beliefs. I was non-denominational. It still continues to be a stressful issue in our lives and always will be, I think.

I have asked Jesus into my heart and life and asked forgiveness. My husband is not a Christian yet. The Lord has taken a tremendous burden off my shoulders but I still think about my one unborn child.

Nine years later and 2 beautiful daughters later (3 yrs. and 9 months), I still think about that other child I could have had. I still feel sorrow and guilt and will always wish I had not rushed into that one deadly decision.