I no longer take life for granted
I was 25 years old, married but having marital troubles
and was very unhappy in my job. With the encouragement of two female
friends, I had an abortion at pre-term without my husband's knowledge.
(The abortion was) very routine. I had an I.V. with Valium and felt no pain
or discomfort. The nurse who was with me was very sweet. The so-called counselor
was utterly useless and did nothing to even ask if I considered alternatives. I
found her attitude annoying.
At first I was very happy and satisfied. I had been very angry at being
pregnant and resented my husband. But the guilt lay behind the surface and after
I was fired from my job, I felt God was punishing me. I didn't accept the
gravity of my deed for another four years.
After I became a Christian, I asked for God's forgiveness. I forgave the
friends who let me down, the counselor for not caring about me and my husband
for putting me in such a position of distrust that I couldn't count on him.
I no longer take life for granted. I will always wonder if the difficulty I
had giving birth the first time was a result. Born babies I had later were
breach at term (one was turned by the doctor, the other by itself).