I had two abortions. The first in 1970 - set up by the father's parents -
performed at a hospital as a D & C. Second abortion was 1971 (possibly 1972) -
set up by Planned Parenthood - I was flown out to N.Y.C. - had abortion and flew
home same day. No one knew.
The first one I was put under general anesthesia, but letting others make the
decision to abort left me with little self esteem. I had wanted to keep the baby
and marry the father. Second one was a nightmare - pain - total loss of
decision-making.
In both cases, the relationship with the father of the children terminated
within a year. I suffered miscarriages, insomnia, weight loss, exhaustion,
constant swallowing, nervousness, decreased work capacity, frigidity, guilt,
sense of loss, regret, Loss of Confidence in Decision Making, Lower Self
Esteem, intent interest in babies, inability to forgive myself.
I got involved with Operation Rescue - sidewalk counseling and risking arrest
several times - helping others has been the healing.
They have made me more appreciative of life and all the issues regarding life
at all stages - preborn or born, young or old.
