This is an unchangeable - unforgettable thing to do to a child
I was just re-married and my husband was 40. He didn't
want any children by me - his kids were grown and he didn't want to start
over again raising children. He had mine (a boy of age 4) to deal with and
that was enough!
I had to have the abortion 2 times. I went early in my pregnancy to get it
over quick (I'm a nurse and didn't want the baby to be too big). The doctor
didn't get all of the parts, and in one month when I should have had my period I
didn't. A blood test showed I was pregnant. I was now 12 - 14 weeks along and
had to have
diliteria and re-aborted. Perhaps I had had twins? One aborted the first
time and another continued to grow and aborted the second time. WHAT A HORRIBLE
My son is 14 now. When I see him around smaller children I realize that I
killed his brother or sister. He is an only child and will be that only because
of my selfishness. This is an unchangeable - unforgettable thing to do to a
child. I have remorse for killing my child who I did not know, but my real
day-to-day sorrow is for my living child who will be alone in this world because
I pray for God's forgiveness and for God to care for my child who is now
alone in this world because of me.
I would have never had an illegal abortion. It just would not have been the
easy solution to an untimely pregnancy, and we all would have survived raising
another child. Now I praise God for his forgiveness of my sin but my living son
still is alone. When I'm old and need help, my selfishness may be repaid by
loneliness. I praise God in all situations.