My baby spoke to me

A friend made arrangements - I was almost 6 months along. I went thru it alone.

A nightmare I live with every day of my life. I have never forgotten the baby. I know my baby spoke to me as they took out the amniotic fluid and put in the saline solution. He spoke as clearly as if he were beside me. He said "mommy why are you killing me." I will never forget that as long as I live. I thought I was resolving a problem with a quick solution. That was the beginning of a nightmare. I live with every day of my life. I wish I could unscrew people's heads and pour the truth in. I have talked with so many who have had abortions and the outcome is always the same - guilt and grief and regret.

I changed my relationship with men. I didn't trust. I wouldn't love or get close with anyone.

I accept Christ's forgiveness.

I resented the father of my baby (we later married.) I don't think I ever forgave him or myself for what happened (until I got saved and accepted Christ's forgiveness).