Afraid I would be abandoned…
Please be assured that there is much pain and anguish after having an
abortion. The pain is almost imperceptible after the initial "relief" of the
It has taken me years to come to terms with my abortions and to feel healing.
I would like you to be aware of some conditions that were in operation in my
I was raised a Catholic and we attended church regularly. I was, however,
sexually abused by a neighbor. (He was about 15 and I was around 5.) I believe
at that time and after, I had very little understanding of the boundaries of my
body - maybe sacredness of my body is a better description.
I lived with my boyfriend and became pregnant. Although abortion was against
my values, I think I felt that my womb was somehow separate from me. I was
afraid I would be abandoned. Although devastated, the second abortion was easier
(hardening of the heart?).
My point is, we need to be aware of how a person perceives the uniqueness of
themselves and the sacredness of life.
Reconciliation and Healing