Afraid I would be abandoned…

Please be assured that there is much pain and anguish after having an abortion. The pain is almost imperceptible after the initial "relief" of the abortion.

It has taken me years to come to terms with my abortions and to feel healing. I would like you to be aware of some conditions that were in operation in my case.

I was raised a Catholic and we attended church regularly. I was, however, sexually abused by a neighbor. (He was about 15 and I was around 5.) I believe at that time and after, I had very little understanding of the boundaries of my body - maybe sacredness of my body is a better description.

I lived with my boyfriend and became pregnant. Although abortion was against my values, I think I felt that my womb was somehow separate from me. I was afraid I would be abandoned. Although devastated, the second abortion was easier (hardening of the heart?).

My point is, we need to be aware of how a person perceives the uniqueness of themselves and the sacredness of life.

Post-Abortion Facts, Reconciliation and Healing