I feel so strongly that I should have had the baby

I was told by the man I was dating that he could not have children. I was young and fell for it. I had the abortion at his vote. My peers knew of it, but not my family.

As a mistake I feel so strongly that I should have had the baby. During the abortion I held the nurse's hand and cried.

I am saddened. My mental response was to encourage others to have abortions. Now I have guilt for my opinion and other's lives. I always cry when I hear teary songs although now that I have one (a child) of my own, it's better.

Time heals a lot. I really pray for my child but no one knows the nature of my guilt.

I am one child less. I have grown and could help others now.