I had 20 years of intermittent hell on earth
I was backward and immature, wanting a baby, became with child and I was
unwed. Then tragedy struck the home, doctor felt abortion was the only solution.
I could not cause more pain. I had the abortion.
I was uninformed. Not counseled about other alternatives, like home for unwed
mothers, adoption, etc. Only, "Are you sure"? I felt hard inside. I was "put
out" for the abortion, but awake knowing I was a murderer.
For me, (there followed) 20 years of post abortion syndrome. It’s my fault, I
pushed it dead inside. Burying it there with all my painful memories, hurt and
Prayer and Bible reading helped me. Christian music and talking about it was
a great help. Going to college (not as good). Going to work – compounded my
problems and caused some problems in marriage and home.
I had 20 years of intermittent hell on earth. Intermittent because of my God,
and husband helped love. The hell on earth came from denial and lack of memory
and forgiveness to self and others. I will forever be against abortion and feel
woman should have the right to full knowledge about fetal development, abortion
procedures and post abortion syndrome.