It was the family secret
When I told my mom I was pregnant she immediately made the appointment. I
kept hanging the phone up on her and she kept redialing. Finally she got
through. When the next morning came I crept down stairs got into my car and sped
away – she quickly followed and finally caught up with me. After a fight she
convinced me to just go down to have another test done to confirm it. Somehow I
later found myself recovering from the abortion wondering,
What now? The abortion was performed by a private doctor who happened to
be a long time friend of my parents and our next door neighbor.
[I felt] sad, trapped, no way out, confused, angry, in shock, scared.
It was the family secret. I dove heavily into drugs and sex. Constantly
having pregnancy tests for fear of being pregnant. I felt scarred and blackened
At first, I denied it [the abortion], suppressed it and tried to escape from
it. Finally, God called me back to him after years of being and living in
disobedience and brought New Hope Pregnancy Aid Center into my life where I had
one-on-one as well as group counseling with the book PACE.
I am actually opposed to abortion now and never take a wishy-washy stand. I
had a friend who was considering having a second abortion and I was able to talk
to her and we both relived the abortion experience and then she realized she
could not go through that again and now she has a beautiful one-year-old baby
boy. I also (when I’m married) would like to be a shepherding home for unwed
pregnant girls. I have also spoken at the New Hope Pregnancy Aid Center dinner
and gave my abortion experience testimony to 450 people including a congressman
and I was able to let those present know that help is available before abortion
as well as after.