[I came to have an abortion] because the Supreme Court legalized abortion,
and when I became pregnant one month after marriage, my husband pressured me for
an abortion because he did not mean for us to be pregnant yet. I argued for
about 3 weeks, but as a new bride and thinking I should submit to him, I agreed
for him . . . .
Emotionally, physically and spiritually draining. Secretive. We drove miles
to the clinic in the A.M. and home that evening. I laid in the back of the
station wagon bleeding all the way back.
It took months for me to forgive myself. My husband was not sorry for doing
it (except years later for a short time and then later he changed his position
back to saying it was just another form of birth control). The abortion - and
other things - put a wedge between us. He would not let me cry about it when we
left the clinic that day. It was not until 7 years later I allowed myself to
grieve the loss of that sweet child.
I knew within weeks/months afterwards that God knew my heart and forgave me.
We were blessed with 3 children after that. My husband asked me to abort the 1st
and 3rd of these children too, but I did not submit these times.
I was a Christian, married to a supposedly Christian man and was hurt deeply
to be asked to abort my first child. So undeservingly, God blessed me/us with 3
other children - all the more precious to me. After 10 years of marriage, my
husband and I are divorced. God's grace in Jesus is sufficient.
