Now I have a broken heart over my lost children
I had 3 abortions. The 1st when I was 18. I was
unmarried and afraid my parents would be very angry with me. I didn’t know
what was going to happen to me (or happen to my baby). My boyfriend was
[The abortions were] suction type procedures. The first one, I don’t
remember. They offered 2 valiums and I took them. It was over fast. The
2nd one was very painful. I don’t remember much about the third one.
I’ve had emotional problems after these abortions. Unable to express my
feelings (numbness), grief (unresolved). My marriage ended, also. There is
an inability to trust men.
I volunteer for a crisis pregnancy center. I had counseling
there. I also had help from an Episcopal Priest.
[The abortions] changed my life because I could have had three beautiful
children to complete my life. My marriage may also have not broken up. Now I
have a broken heart over my lost children. And it haunts me that my cervix may
be incompetent now after 3 abortions. I have much regret.