God protected me from having an
abortion. He gave me an awareness of the value of life. However, I
did suffer because of abortion. When I was a teenager, my mother asked me
to go with her to an abortion clinic. This was in Cuba where abortion was
very, very common. And the same doctor that we saw at the clinic, had a
private office where they did abortions, even though abortion on demand was not
legal in Cuba at that time. I begged my mother not to abort that child.
I did everything that I could. I said to her, “I will raise it, mom!”
And I was only a teenager. “I will raise it; I will take care of it for
you.” And she smiled and she said, “What would people think? Look how old
you are already.”
And I remember sitting in that
clinic, inside, and waiting for her to finish and just wondering what I could’ve
done more. I was not a Christian. I didn’t have any pictures to show
her. I didn’t really know how bad abortion was. In my heart I felt
that it was something bad, but I never really knew until I saw the pictures.
And I never really knew for many years how much anger I had inside of me against
my mother. It took years. We were never close after that.
I attempted suicide shortly after
that. And most of my life I felt that I really had to be the best at
everything, because I really had to make it worthwhile that she allowed me to be
born. I later found out that she had aborted other children. And
every time we sat at the dinner table, I would look and think about those that
were not there. There’s tremendous pain when you’re a sibling and your
mother aborts. And I’m sure that there are many people out there that are
feeling this pain. I gave my testimony to a group of people last night,
and several people came up to me and said something similar.
I got involved in the pro-life
movement and I have been in it for over thirty years. And when I first saw
the abortion pictures, when I saw the one about the DNC, the DNC baby that comes
out in pieces, that’s the type of abortion that’s done in Cuba. And a
voice, an interior voice said to me, “That’s what your brother looked like when
he was aborted.” And I wrote a letter to the brother that I have not met,
that I will meet in heaven.
Brothers and sisters, abortion
hurts. For years I went through post-abortion syndrome. I didn’t
know that you could go through post-abortion syndrome if you haven’t had an
abortion yourself, but I did. I have a type of cancer that is very deadly.
And my sister lives in Fort Myers, my brother lives somewhere else. I
would’ve had a brother or sister to help me through this difficult time that I’m
going through. And I lost most of my family to abortion. My mother
had eight abortions. And my mother realized what she had done when she saw
one of my presentations. It was a great pain for me to have her present.
I never told her how bad it was, but she came to one of my presentations, and
she saw what abortion is, and she used to say to me, “If only I had known!
I love all my children. If only someone had told me. If only I had
known.” Till the day she died, she regretted her abortions.
God bless you.
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