A cold step by step process
I was 20 years old, had a decent job and was dating my boss. I did not know he was married until I told him I was pregnant. I broke up with him immediately and was confused as to what to do.
The abortion itself was very unemotional for the doctor and nurse involved. As for the physical feeling, it was very painful.
I'm 27 years old and married with two children. To this day I am still hurting mentally for what I've done. No one else except my husband knows.
I am dealing with my abortion privately on a day to day basis with God. I'm praying constantly that God will forgive me and I will forgive myself.
The only good thing that came out of this abortion was my strong conviction I have against abortion. There's a little part of me that died with my baby. I will never be the same.
I would like to add a few more comments.
I was brought up a good Catholic girl in an upper middle class family. I had whatever I wanted growing up. I attended college for 2 years until I found a good job and could afford to live on my own.
While I was in college I met girls like I, but who had two or more abortions. I remember thinking to myself how sad these girls were. I swore I would never get an abortion if the situation ever happened to me, but it did and I did, and here is my point.
I feel if I had gone for some support from anyone things might have been different.
When I attended the appointment for the abortion the Doctor did not explain any of the procedure to me. He just showed me a little clip on how happy this woman was after her abortion. He or the nurse never explained the physical and emotional pain that follows the procedure. I remember everything as a cold step by step process. It happened in about an hour. They took $250.00 in cash and I was out the door. I was supposed to walk out the door a free and happy woman. Wrong.
I just want the politicians, doctors, woman's rights activists, to know that abortions are not meant to happen, that we are playing God killing babies and it is not the answer to life's problems. It is not an issue that involves the right of women to decide whether she wants to subject her body to pregnancy. IT IS A LIFE OR DEATH ISSUE.