Hello. I just wanted to attempt to share my story with you. I am forty-six years old with a wonderful husband and three beautiful children. I had my first child, a daughter, when I was sixteen years old. I had my second child when I was nineteen years old and married the man I am married to today. When my second child was just two months old I found out I was pregnant again. I went to the doctor and he recommended that I have an abortion. So we scraped up the $500.00 it cost to have the abortion and, terrified, I went and had the procedure done. I was put to sleep, and I woke up screaming and crying. The nurse told me to shut up, that there were other people there. I started to drink very heavily afterward and my husband and I grew farther and farther apart. I was angry all the time, with a severe bitterness within me.
When I turned twenty-two years old I became pregnant once again. And again I chose to abort the child. This time I was wide awake. It was the most horrible thing I have ever gone through in my life. (As if the first time wasn't bad enough.) The pain for me was awful. I cannot imagine the pain my unborn child had to endure! I could feel my baby being ripped out of me! I said, “Please, please stop!” They said it was too late for that.
I became pregnant again at the age of twenty-four. I had another son. For years I was tormented by the murder of my two children. I had turned to alcohol for relief from the pain. My husband, who was raised in a Christian home with ten brothers and sisters, turned to the Lord. He gave his life to Christ and I could not believe the changes in him. I too wanted what he had! I quit drinking about three years ago and accepted Jesus as my savior! I know Jesus has made it possible for me to be forgiven.
The other day I came across a video by Karen Peck called The Hour I First was Saved. I felt like God the Father was wrapping his arms around me and telling me, “Sherri I forgive you!” I have never felt such love in my life. I now, after grieving for so many years, have forgiven myself. I praise God for his mercy and glory!