I had an abortion because I felt that financially I would not be able to support my mother and younger brother on a part-time, minimum wage job. The shame of being unwed and pregnant tormented me! Always being looked up to as the good decision-maker, I felt I had let my family down. I was not a Christian then.
The procedure was horrific! I was fully awake and no local anesthetic was given. I heard the sound of the suction, and I saw everything going into a glass container. The smell everything was absolutely horrifying!
After the abortion I felt broken, empty, and numb, along with the physical pain of what my body had just undergone. As time went by, I cried and cried without anyone knowing. Years of pain and suffering led me to the foot of the cross, acknowledging that I was a sinner in need of a Savior. Through God's Word I realized that I was forgiven and that my three beautiful and innocent children are in heaven with God! What I had not done was forgiven myself. But through "Forgiven and Set Free" I have completely had my eyes open to how much God loves me and that He was there with me even at the very moment of my abortions! I was not alone! I have forgiven myself! This is just the testimony of one of the abortions.