I had an abortion because my mom thought my dad would kill her if we told him I was pregnant. I couldn't forgive myself for not moving out of my parents’ house and having my child on my own. Before the procedure, I pleaded with my mom to let me keep my child. We were fighting up until the time I went under the anesthesia. During the procedure I felt very violated and not like a human being. I completely blocked the whole thing out of my mind; it was like an out-of-body experience. Afterward I felt shame, guilt, and that I was stupid and unworthy to live.
As time went on I continued on a path of total destruction. I became very promiscuous and got into one-night stands just to feel loved. I felt so alone and abandoned. My mom was supposed to understand that life was precious and help me have my child.
After my husband and I were married, I had a wonderful experience with the Divine Mercy Chaplet and the Rosary that helped me. Prayers and the Mass helped me too. I had to divorce my husband when my son was three. I felt like I needed more healing. A friend told me to go to Rachel’s Vineyard. It was very good for me. I felt the presence of my children there. After Rachel’s Vineyard I felt such peace. I found healing in that experience. I also found healing in Healing of the Heart Ministries.
At Rachel’s Vineyard I promised my children that I would fight this battle for them, that I would fight this horrible crime against woman and children.
