I had an abortion because... I was too young and immature, and the father was irresponsible and even more immature than I was.
During the abortion procedure I experienced... anxiety. I kept asking the other girls about their situation and experience. I was so terrified.
Immediately after the abortion I felt... really confused. Almost like it was a dream. I was in denial for a long time and kept thinking I was never even really pregnant because during the abortion they put me to sleep and I don’t remember anything.
As time went on after the abortion I felt kind of different because for my generation it’s getting more and more normal for teens my age to get pregnant and whenever I told someone they would call me names like murderer. I would be looked down on. People would judge me not even knowing any of my reasons and story. I learned to keep my experience quiet.
I never really found help or forgiveness. At the time I didn’t know anyone who had experienced the same thing and until now I didn’t even know there were help groups. At first I would always pray for forgiveness but after a few people saying hurtful things I started to believe some of it and stopped praying because I was ashamed.
My aunt had told me a little of her story and things she knew about this group and I was really interested in it.