I had an abortion because my partner told me this is what we need to do. During the abortion procedure I experienced great pain, a sickening darkness was around me, and I felt numb. Immediately after the abortion I felt empty, sick, confused, and I wondered how to fit into society. As time went on after the abortion I felt and experienced remorse for my actions. I cringed when I heard the word abortion. I pleaded with God to forgive me many times each day. I found help and forgiveness through Rachel's Vineyard and my church.