I had an abortion because I was afraid of losing my husband. We had a baby boy eleven months old right out of high school and living in four rooms with his parents, he felt very pressured.
During the procedure, I experienced spiritual death. Immediately I wanted to die. As time went by, I had horrible nightmares of chickens with their heads cutoff. I would dream that I would be coming in my house with my baby who is alive, and the chickens would surround us. I would be screaming. I also would dream of an old scary man standing in front of my house just staring up at my window waiting to take my son and me.
I found forgiveness and help through John Paul and Our Lady of Medjugorje. John Paul came to Boston and spoke about the greatest gift we can give our children is a sibling. I knew I was hearing the TRUTH for the first time in a long time. Then my son Anthony gave me for a fortieth birthday gift a pilgrimage to Medjugorje in 1993. Finally in the jubilee year I went to Italy for Easter and came home and went to a pastor who was part of Project Rachel. I bought a stone for my babies at the Holy Innocents Shrine at Divine Mercy Shrine in Stockbridge, MA in 2012. I felt I was the Samaritan woman when I looked at Jesus. I was looking at what I spent my life looking for, TRUE LOVE UNCONDTIONAL! His mercy melts the pain.