Thankful for a Second Chance

  Trish
Ontario,  Canada
 
  “YOU CAN MAKE A MISTAKE ONCE, BUT DO IT AGAIN…IT’S UNFORGIVABLE!”  THESE WORDS MY FATHER SPOKE TO ME WOULD ECHO IN MY MIND FOR YEARS!  AT AGE 19 I TOLD MY HANDSOME PRINCE I WAS PREGNANT.  HE CRUMBLED! SAID HIS LIFE WAS RUINED!!  WE SAW A DOCTOR WHO SENT US TO “SOME PEOPLE” WHO COULD HELP.  THEY TOLD US WE NEEDED TO HAVE A LITTLE PROCEDURE TO REMOVE A BLOB OF TISSUE..JUST A CLUMP OF CELLS!  I DIDN’T WANT TO DO IT BUT I WAS SO AFRAID OF LOSING MY BOYFRIEND, AND EVEN MORE AFRAID OF MY FATHER’S WRATH!!
          
THE ABORTION CLINIC HAD NO SIGNS, ....IT WAS DARK AND MUSTY.  THEY SEPARATED US, AND I WAS LEFT ALONE UNTIL A NURSE CAME FOR ME.  AS SHE LED ME DOWN THE HALL, I COULD HEAR WHIMPERING BEHIND A DOOR! I WANTED TO RUN..SHE GRABBED MY ARM AND SAID “EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE.”  SHE PLACED ME IN A TINY DARK ROOM AND GAVE ME A SEDATIVE.  WHEN THE DR. CAME IN I WANTED TO YELL NO!!..BUT I WAS LIKE RUBBER AND I COULDN’T SPEAK!  I FELT TUGGING, AND PAIN, AND A VACUUM SOUND..AND I NEVER KNEW THIS DR.’S NAME!

I WAS FOREVER CHANGED.   I FELT DEAD INSIDE.   I BEGAN A DOWNWARD SPIRAL OF ALCOHOL AND DRUGS TO NUMB MY PAIN.  DEPRESSION BECAME MY SECRET FRIEND.  AT AGE 21 I WAS RAPED..A PREGNANCY RESULTED!  A SECOND TRIP TO BUFFALO WAS MADE.  I DON’T RECALL MUCH OF THAT TRIP, BUT NOW MY LABEL WAS “UNFORGIVABLE!”
AT AGE 23 I ATTEMPTED SUICIDE.  THE PAIN AND REGRET CONSUMED ME… I WENT TO MY BEDROOM & BEGAN TAKING HANDFULS OF PRESCRIPTION MEDICATION  MY DOG BEGAN TO SCRATCH AT THE DOOR..SO I LET HIM IN ..HE JUMPED ON THE BED – THE PILLS FLEW EVERYWHERE!... SURPRISINGLY, THE NEXT MORNING I AWOKE! – THANKFUL FOR A SECOND CHANCE!  

I BECAME A REGISTERED NURSE AND CAME FACE TO FACE WITH WHAT ABORTION IS!! “THE KILLING OF HUMAN LIFE!”  I DID EVENTUALLY HAVE CHILDREN, BUT HAD C/S’S DUE TO SCARRING IN MY UTERUS!  THERE ARE NO FREE PASSES WHEN YOU’VE HAD AN ABORTION…THERE IS A PRICE TO PAY!  TODAY IT’S BECOME A CONTRACEPTIVE METHOD!!  THE KILLING MUST STOP!!  I AM SILENT NO MORE!!

   
   
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